043 – June status update
It’s June 30th 2022 and probably a good time to do a status update within the 100 posts project. It 3pm and I am about t
041 – living the fundamental Quality loop
The craft-ship mindset, that’s what’s on my mind today. Craft on multiple dimensions– objects– experie
040 – confidence hiding under susceptibility to achievements
Some say that you don’t need a niche, but just need to be prolific, to create a lot, in order to find content that reson
039 – what I want to see more of
Today I am going to continue from a post that I wrote yesterday. The post intended to journal about two questions and to refle
038 – what I see around
Today I want to journal about two questions. In attempting to answer these two questions I want to reflect about what I value
037 – identity and spaces
Death and rebirth is the continuous cycle of the human psyche. My body and my identity are both dying a little bit every day,
036 – letter to posterity: life and tech
This is a letter to posterity, an artificial occasion for me to convey whatever I think is most important to record before the
035 – Self-trust
A > What’s up? Z > Nothing is up. What do you want to know? A > I want to know what’s present for you? Z > Good qu
034 – wanting priorities
Optionality, options, things to do, things that can be done, I could keep write this list of things over and it would keep gro
032 – defences against being oneself
Greed is life best and worst trait. I watch it constantly seek more and feel torn apart by its relentlessness. I watch it turn
031 – confusing itchy freedom
I have a feeling that something is not clicking and I don’t know what it is. It is a strange feeling. I don’t know
030 – surfacing deep desires
Today, I want to reflect about desires. Yesterday, when I was landing in Tenerife from Glashow I noticed that I have been feel
029 – giving space to specific whats that energise me
Tonight I intend to write down my observations of my reality during the past few weeks. I start by asking myself a question: w
027 – serious AND playful
Today, I feel like I have been swallowed by life. If you imagine life being this big worm that crawls around, I feel like I wa
026 – Taking up responsibility for others unleashes a powerful creative energy
Some days there is just too much happening, too many feelings and thoughts, that cannot feet in your head. And if it cannot fi
025 – Accepting the simplicity of my desires and healing from discipline trauma of not having been accepting that
It is a Sunday of mid December and life feels sweet. Almost as it never did before, even if it did. I feel integrated and whol
024 – my map needs unconditional trust to guide
The night is out there surrounding me which makes my thoughts all too fragile but also all too vivid, like flesh peaking out f
022 – I am a city and a minotaur lives inside of it
I am a city, inside of me there are many people, with different quirks and personality, with different needs and trades, with
021 – I love mellow energies
Streams of consciousness are everywhere, they surround us from all possible directions and angles. It is quite incredible that
020 – being different as a consequences of widely sampling the probability space of experience
And if there were many things to think about then there would have been many things to think about all along the way. And if t
016 – Lots to celebrate. Fear as alarm clock and seeking a perfectionism-caring partnership.
I feel odd. I have a mix of different feelings that I cannot easily tell apart. I feel both good and bad at the same time. Wha
015 – numbers are great servants but terrible overlords
I want it so badly. I am trying so hard. I need to make progress. I must make progress. Argh, why am not making progress! Why
014 – Five playful vibes
Tonight is a game night: we are playing vibing. Vibing is a simple game. Every round one participant allows a vibe to emerge a
013 – Trusting myself to take care of myself
I have noticed that sometimes I have unmet needs for myself. There are multiple parts to it. It is a mix of: trusting that I a
012 – Being present to my environment, people, self and reality (requires non-doing)
What has been present for me lately? Enviroment I have set up for myself a very empowering living and working space in Glasgow
011 – Rocky is waiting
Jonh: Hi there, how are you? Rocky: Hi Jonh! I am, mmm, hard to say how I am. Jonh: What makes it hard? Rocky: I am feeling so
010 – When I am struggling to find a solution often is because I don’t really need a solution but just some love and encouragement
Every day I ponder about what to do. That pondering is not in a vacuum. It is based on a specific model of reality, which hing
009 – The three social media problem
I want to capture some reflections on my experience of using social media. Currently, I am living in a period of minimal in-pe
008 – Two days
Today was Saturday, September 18th, 2021. It is 23:34 and this day is about to end. This morning I spend almost 5 hours in the
007 – Buzz, buzz and buzz
Today I want to explore writing a stream of consciousness and see what comes out. I like short paragraphs of one sentence only
006 – Number 83010283912023
Dear, I approach writing this letter with timid apprehension. I fear that my experience and expressive abilities may not live
005 – My World And This World
Late at night, My World knocked at the door of This World who opened the door in his nightgown, showing his annoyance by yawni
004 – The Sapir-Whorf hypothesis
Recently I re-watched Arrival, one of my favourite science-fiction movies. This time, after watching the movie I decided to be
003 – Overcoming purpose anxiety
The lovework feeling I am feeling like challenging myself to do something useful and fun. It feels similar to wanting to go fo
002 – Clear writing, clear thinking
Writing is painful because is precise. For the same reason, it is very helpful. When thoughts are swimming around my mind they
001 – I can’t define my words
Here are some words meshed together by me. Starting from the basics: what are these things I am mashing together? What are the